Oh hells...

[berranyr_mizzrym]

I've screwed things up badly enough at this point it probably doesn't matter whether this is public. Especially since anyone to whom it matters can probably hack into it.

Mercury... I'm sorry. Yes, yes, I know. Yes, this is actually me apologizing; someone else hasn't possessed me and decided to humiliate me. And I expect you'll think it's a trap now. Feel free to, it's not as if it would make any difference... But I really am sorry. For everything. You don't remember some of it, but... I still do. I just-

I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long
I've been guessing - and I coulda been guessin' wrong
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down?

Well I feel stupid, but it's something that comes and goes
I've been changin' - I think it's funny how no one knows
We don't talk about the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around

So why you gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now?
It seems to me you'd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season

I feel stupid, but I think I been catchin' on
I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on
You've grown colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down?

So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out?
We need to be together now
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season

And now I'm cryin'
Isn't that what you want?
And I'm tryin' to live my life on my own
But I won't, no,
At times I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do I, I, I feel stupid
And I come undone
And I come undone

I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken though I've never spoken

Well I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - I'm a child and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken though I've never spoken
I come undone
I come undone in this mad season

In this mad season
It's been a mad season
Been a mad season

... At least this blasted music thing is appropriate. I just wish I could do something...

Comments

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ Strange is your language and I have no decoder
Why don’t you make your intentions clear
With eyes to the sun and your mouth to the soda
Saying, tell me the truth, you got nothing to fear
Stop staring at me like a bird of prey
I’m all mixed up, I got nothing to say
I don’t remember
I don’t remember

I don’t remember, I don’t recall
I got no memory of anything at all
I don’t remember, I don’t recall
I got no memory of anything
Anything at all ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Wonder how you sleep
I wonder what you think of me
If I could go back
Would you have ever been with me
I want you to be unused
I want you to remember
I want you to believe in me
I want you on my side

Come on and lay it down
I've always been with you
Here and now
Give all that's within you
Be my savior
And I'll be your downfall
mmm, mmm, mmm

Here we go again
Ashamed of being broken in
We're getting off track
I wanna get you back again
I want you to trouble me
I wanted you turning down
I want you to agree with me
I want so much so bad

Come on and lay it down
I've always been with you
Here and now
Give all that's within you
Be my savior
And I'll be your downfall
mmm, mmm, mmm

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ just a little taste will do
i know you understand
i am not looking for love
i am not making a plan ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Some people
It's a pity
They go all their lives and never know
How to love or let love go...

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ Love is for fools that fall behind. ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

I am the one winged bird for flying
Sinking quickly to the ground
See your faith in me subsiding
See you prime for giving in
I give you all that I am

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ How can we be lovers if we can't be friends?
How can we start over when the fighting never ends? ♫

♫ I'm not always nice, not always mean
The way I feel is not always how I seem

The thoughts that form inside my brain
Don't always seem to entertain
'Cause when I tell my company
They think there's something wrong with me

You don't know me like you think you do
You don't understand me and it's true ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

I am the white dove for a soldier
Ever marching as to war
I would give my life to save you
I stand guarding at your door
I give you all that I am

... That's strange. One wouldn't normally associate a dove with a drow.

And it isn't my choice that we fight.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ Don’t call me ‘baby’
You got to learn that, baby, that’ll never do
You know I don’t belong to you
It’s time you knew I’m not your baby
I belong to me
So don’t call me ‘baby’ ♫

♫ Why are you so afraid
To lose what's not yours to save? ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Don't let 'em get where they're going to
You know they're only what they think of you
You heard of this emotional trickery
And you felt like you were learning the ropes
But where you're going now you don't know

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ I don't need advice.
Live my life, day by day.
I'll just have fun, and do it my own way.

I don't know what the future brings.
I can't tell how my life will be,
so I live the moment
Day by day, I live my life.
I'll do it my own way.

I don't wanna know what you think is best for me.
I can make a decision myself.
I don't need your advice. ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Please don't change, please don't break
The only thing that seems to work at all is you
Please don't change, at all from me
To you, and you to me

Straight up, what did you hope to learn about here?
If I were someone else, would this all fall apart?
Strange, where were you, when we started this gig?
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ And I know we have to go
I realize we only get to stay so long
Always have to go back to real lives
Where we belong
Where we belong
Where we belong ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ Can't love you like that
Can't love you like you want me to
Can't give your feelings back
'Cause I can't love you like that ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Well you worry 'bout the things they could do to you
And you worry 'bout the things they could say
Maybe you're seein' things the wrong way...

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ Say whatever you wanna say;
you're not listening anyway ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

I am listening. And it sounds to me like you're grasping at straws.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ No words of love were spoken,
no tears of sadness shed
no unseen tomorrows
no commitments and no sorrows
just goodbye and good luck, friend. ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Wise men say
Only fools rush in
But I can't help
Falling in love with you...

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ I guess I'm supposed to say:
'some way' or 'somewhere'.
but you're still not the one.

This staying-friends business:
everyone says it, everyone says it,
Everyone says it, it seems way over-done.
But maybe it's the only way
that we know how to say:
"you're not the one." ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

How much longer will it take to cure this?
Just to cure it 'cause I can't ignore it
If it's love
Makes me wanna turn around and shake me but I
Don't know nothin' 'bout love...

*sigh* Perhaps you're right. But I can still hope.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ And I don’t know what to say or what to do
All I know is I’m trying not to hurt you ♫

♫ And I don't have many friends if any,
So stay my friend and please stay my friend. ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Don't worry.

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ Don't ask for more
'Cause what you're searching for
You won't find at my door
Don't ask for more ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

*resigned!Pharaun is resigned* At this point? I know better than to expect it.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ You act like I owe you something
But I don't owe anything
to anyone but me
Have you no dignity? ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

I abandoned any hope of hanging on to that long ago.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ I don't want to hurt you.
I don't know why that should be
but it might just mean there's nothing
you and me can be;
not even friends. ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Please don't say things like that. On top of the obvious, it'll get me emotional and then I'll start singing again.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ There's not much I can give;
do you want it anyway?
There's too much you must forgive,
do you want it anyway? ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Oh hells...

You are everything I want
You are everything I need
You are everything inside of me that I wish I could be...

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ I can't take this much more
Shame and guilt rule my soul
I regret all my sins,
I regret what I've done ♫

♫ I think about them, I think about me
I think about the way it used to be
I'm sorry that it comes down to this
I punch through the wall as I break my fist. ♫

♫ I cheated them
like I knew I would
I told them I was trouble
I knew I was no good ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

And when the kids on the street say
What's your problem girl
And the weight of their smile's just
Too much for you to bear
When they all make you feel
Like you're a problem girl
Remember
You're no problem at all
You're no problem at all

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ My mind has been shut down;
My friends have been let down.
What is the reason?
There's millions of reasons.

Single me out,
Tear off my front;
I've only exposed what I concealed ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down
Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ Don't say my world lights up when she smiles;
cause you know it's too late for talk like that.
And as that love fades, I still know that I was betrayed.

Don't say that she'll be there when I need her
cause where is she when I need her now?
I need her; the truth hurts

Everybody's talking about forgiveness
I can't forgive her for leaving me alone. ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

You might be surprised what people can forgive.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ She's made my life completely miserable.
She drove me to the edge, she's caused me all this pain.
But I always loved her cause she's "oh so special"
I'm broken and I'm alone and I can not maintain

Tell me that the end is here;
I am done with her.

Because her and me are through
She couldn't help me, she couldn't save me
Now I know the end is here
I am done with her ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness and
I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life...

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

I did that for her once,
stayed all night just watching her
stayed all night just to take care of her,
and I saved her from him.
She never saved me from him.

[ooc: no way perfect lyrics will be found for this, so pretend it was still lyrics form, lulz]

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

Funny, you always sounded like you enjoyed working with him.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ I'd like to run away from him, but if I were to leave him, I would die. I'd like to break the chains he put around me, and yet I'll never try. No matter what he does, he drives me crazy; I'd rather be alone. But then I know my life would be so empty as soon as he was gone.

Impossible to live with him, but I could never live without him.

He makes me sad, he makes me strong, he makes me mad, he makes me long for him. He makes me live, he makes me die, he makes me laugh, he makes me cry. He treats me wrong, he treats me right, he lets me be, he makes me fight. He makes me high, he brings me down, he sets me free, he holds me bound to him. ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

... Now you know how I feel.

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

♫ when love is gone, there's no arms to run to anymore
i'm all alone there's no one for me to live for
letting go of the things i've always clung to
that's when i need to feel that i belong to him ♫

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

Take this pink ribbon off my eyes. I'm exposed and it's no big surprise. Don't you think I know exactly where I stand? This world is forcing me to hold his hand. 'Cause I'm just a girl, little 'ol me; he won't let me out of his sight. I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite, so they don't let me have any rights. Oh...I've had it up to here!

The moment that I step outside, so many reasons for me to run and hide. I can't do the little things I hold so dear, 'cause it's all those little things that I fear. 'Cause I'm just a girl I'd rather not be, 'cause they won't let me drive late at night. I'm just a girl, guess I'm some kind of freak, 'cause they all sit and stare with their eyes. I'm just a girl, take a good look at me, just your typical prototype.

Oh...I've had it up to here! Oh...am I making myself clear? I'm just a girl; I'm just a girl in the world... That's all that he'll let me be! I'm just a girl, living in captivity. His rule of thumb makes me worry some. I'm just a girl, what's my destiny? What I've succumbed to Is making me numb. I'm just a girl, my apologies; what I've become is so burdensome. I'm just a girl, lucky me! Twiddle-dum there's no comparison

Oh...I've had it up to...Oh...I've had it up to!! Oh...I've had it up to here!

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

God help the outcasts
Hungry from birth
Show them the mercy
They don't find on earth
The lost and forgotten
They look to you still
God help the outcasts
Or nobody will

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[waterfell.livejournal.com]

...

♫ No don't say anymore
To me at all
To me at all
No don't say more
To me at all
To me at all ♫

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[berranyrmizzrym.livejournal.com]

... As you wish.